Jesus LOVE you. He is coming back to receive us!!

We must not follow those, who change God's Word. Follow His Word, as IT is written and DO NOT change a thing.  
There are those, who do NOT teach His Word correctly and who are doing wrong. They are changing the words, for their benefit...and will be taken from The Lambs Book of Life.  
It is WRONG, any way that you look at it...IF you change the bible. We have to live by the Word...as it is written. He even states, at the end of the bible, for us NOT to add or take away from this book. 

Revelation 22:18-19King James Version (KJV)
18 For I testify unto every man that heareth the words of the prophecy of this book, If any man shall add unto these things, God shall add unto him the plagues that are written in this book:

19 And if any man shall take away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God shall take away his part out of the book of life, and out of the holy city, and from the things which are written in this book.

Nothing May Be Added or taken away, from the bible. It is plain and simple.
Make sure that you are being taught correctly. Read it for yourself and you will know The Truth.  
We must keep God in our heart always...and do His will. Be Joyful..no matter what. If we read His word, we can't go wrong. Take it and apply it, in your life. IT only strengthens us and gives our body, the food that it needs to be strong..to carry one. Keep the faith. 
And..we must read it daily, for our Food. 

We should always ask for wisdom..for, He will give it to us and to pray unceasingly. 

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18English Standard Version (ESV)
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray without ceasing, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

He will carry us forward, to His Kingdom..one day. He shall return to receive us, in the clouds...in the day of Rapture. It will come and we shall ALL know that God is our Creator and over all creation. The day of His return...we shall be on our knees. 
He only loves us and wants us all, to come to The Glory of God. He is waiting patiently, for us all to know Him.
To know Him...is to love Him. 
Always keep in touch with God and pray--talk with Him daily. He is a forgiving God.

Revelation 1:7
King James Bible
Behold, he cometh with clouds; and every eye shall see him, and they also which pierced him: and all kindreds of the earth shall wail because of him. Even so, Amen.

Daniel 9:9 King James Bible
To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him; 

Psalm 37:7-9 ESV 
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices! Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil. For the evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait for the Lord shall inherit the land.

He gives us strength to carry on, each and every day. He also, gives us HOPE for a new day. Something that we ALL are looking forward to. 
God Bless all and keep the faith!! ^_^

ABOUT TO GO OUT OF MY MIND FROM PAIN. WHAT DO I DO?

I MIGHT BE SMILING HERE, BUT HAVE BEEN SO GOOD ABOUT NOT SHOWING MY PAIN. I CAN TOLERATE A LOT OF PAIN, BUT NOW...IT IS GETTING UNBEARABLE AND NEED TO GET TO THE ROOT OF THE PROBLEM AND GET IT FIXED. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO...THERE IS SO MUCH THAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

Such a difficult time for me!!! Dealing with JUST so much pain!! I have Lyme disease, systemic Candida, Addison's disease...and all of my back is affected and have a petrusion on my L4-L5. Sure feel like death. Just being honest and speaking the truth. I don't know, what is happening to me, but I'm so tired of dealing with all of it. IT is wearing me down and pray for The Lord, to get me well. 
The systemic candida  is the most likely cause of the Addison's that I'm dealing with. We are also dealing with a mold problem in our home and can't afford to get that fixed. Just don't have the income. That, in itself will keep me sick and I will never get well. 
Soooo lost, in a sea of PAIN..that can really bring a person to their knees and has me. I've always been such a positive person, but don't know what to do...anymore. Just so tired that I am plum give out. :/ 
On top of all of that, I'm dealing with all 5 layers of my back affected. THIS is EVER so hard to deal with and IT keeps me stuck in one spot in bed, where I can't move or the pain will increase. I know that I need surgery or some kind of treatment, that can reverse what is going on inside me. Been fighting this for years now...and it has taken it's toll on me. It is time, to get well. 
All that I want...is to be well, so that I can sing again, draw again, be a human being again.
I'm waiting on a call from the pain management facility...that my NL is trying to get me in to see and pray that they can get me in soon. I need to be diagnosed and treated, but it seems like it's taking forever for me to get in. It is so hard, for someone that feels like I do, to wait so long. :o
Taking such strong medication that's been prescribed, by my NL...that I really hate, but don't have a choice in the matter. The pain is that bad, but it's not covering all of the pain either, only covering 50 % of the pain. 
I truly believe that I'm dealing with some kind of infection or something...on my spine or CNS. It has to be bad...for, I feel like I'm dying I'm in so much pain. I know that I have to work on getting well, but don't see how I can even focus on it...from all that I'm dealing with...IT seems like tooo much on me!!!  :(
Asking for prayers...that The Lord will help me get back on my feet and have some kind of normal life again. 

Thank you ever so much and God Bless you, Karen

LIFE CHANGED

LIFE CHANGED..
People can judge you all day long...
but they haven't a clue, until they step in your shoes.
Before life changed...
things couldn't be more perfect.
I remember the sunshine and the gentle breezes..
The wonderful laughter that filled my soul..
and the smile on my face that never grew old.
Not having a care in the world...
but that was when, I was a young girl.
Life sure did change..
where did it all go?
Now, comes the rain...
and growing old.
Oh...I remember like it was yesterday
Yeah, but that was years ago.
How I long, for how the sunshine feels...
or the gentle breeze on my face. 
Nothing seems real anymore.
Only know of the pain that plagues me..
and how, it took it's place.
Of being in seclusion... 
lost in my own allusion
And..being away from the ones, I love...

is that my conclusion?

~ K.E

What things can mess with your hormones and what can naturally help them get back in balance?

Hormonal imbalances commonly occur before and around menopause. 
Hormone replacement therapy can cause an increase risk in Breast Cancer, Blood Clots in the Lung, Heart Attack & even Dementia. 
So many women are seeking natural remedies. Whole food sources of Soy-like Soybeans & Tofu, may decrease hot flashes. Not advised to take Soy supplements. A complete safety study has not been completed. 
Calcium & Vitamin D supplementation can help preserve bone mass. 


TIP # 1:
LIMIT EXPOSURE TO ANTI-BACTERIAL PRODUCTS.
They contain a harmful chemical called Triclosan. It is alright to use them under emergency circumstances and do not have any regular Soap around, but limit using it to only when, you have to.

TIP # 2:
USE SUNBLOCK INSTEAD OF SUNSCREEN.
Sunscreens used chemicals like Oxybenzone. They actually take a little time, to fully block the Ultraviolet Rays, where Sunblocks contains minerals block U-V Rays immediately.

TIP # 3:
USE GLASS INSTEAD OF PLASTIC FOOD & BEVERAGE CONTAINERS.
Plastic containers can contain chemicals that can act like the sex steroid Estrogen.

TIP # 4:
GET A FULL NIGHT'S SLEEP
Decreases a man's Testosterone.
The less sleep that you get also increases other problem areas like strokes or heart attacks. Always get more than 6 and less than 9. Anywhere between 7-8 are best.

TIP # 5:
EAT YOUR BROCCOLI
Cruciferous Vegetables like Broccoli contain ISOTHIOCYANATES.
ITC'S have been shown to decrease the expression of Estrogen responsive genes.
Eat your cruciferous veggies to lift the effect of Estrogen in the body.


Hopefully, this helps someone with their hormones to be more balanced. I sure know that mine are out of whack!!
If, I can do anything to help someone else fight this battle, I will. Live a healthier life, by eating the right natural foods and using the right natural products.
Information only used for health and is only intended for healing. We are what we put in our bodies and we all need to learn what those things are, to be informed of the things we should be doing to have a healthier life!! Be healthy!!  :)

Why are my legs vibrating and pulsating? IT feels like I have an electrical current running through my body!! :O

WHAT IS CAUSING THE VIBRATING AND PULSATING ELECTRICAL CURRENT IN MY BODY?? MY LEGS WON'T STOP and NOW, HAVING THEM IN MY CHEST!! FEELS LIKE A CELL-PHONE IS LAYING THERE ON VIBRATE! 

Hello all, I am at my wits end with what I've been going through and need to see, if anyone else has been having these symptoms...and if, they could possibly be from being hit by a nerve block, Lyme or surgery?? 

Trying to figure out, which Doc I need to pay a visit to first. Not waste my time. 
The best way to explain it was that the Doc who did the NB's could have been the one, who caused ALL of this because of the leg involvement after the blocks. 

Being hit by a NERVE BLOCK is called a "Wet Tap". Literally...well, I donno about literally...but REALLY equated to it feeling like I was hit by a bolt of lightening. I jumped, when he struck my nerve...while doing the block. When I jumped on the table, I raised my head and asked him what had happened. He got quit and the only words he uttered were, "FRICTION." Still believe that has a big impact on what is going on with my legs because they NEVER stop pulsating, or vibrating. That can drive a person crazy because it is like RLS x 100. :o 

In my legs, dealing with spasms, cramps, burning and feels like my whole left calf is on fire. Mostly, they feel like they are vibrating or pulsating and sort of a throb. The symptoms are driving me crazy and feel electrical in some way. My legs literally feel like they have some sort of an electrical current going throughout them and up my body and down..back and forth. 

I am already worn out from not sleeping, just dealing with Lyme disease, but it doesn't explain my legs doing these weird things. The only thing that comes to mind is that, when I was hit by a nerve block back in '06, a few months after having the neck surgery on my C5-C6(ACD & F spinal Diskectomy). The surgery was done, but the pain still persisted. That caused me to go get nerve blocks, to deal with the pain. The pain just would never stop and was endless, but was dealing with it the best I could. The only bad symptom was that my arms would cramp and hurt, but after the nerve block...it moved into my legs. 

That nerve block, I believe did something to my nerve that is connected to my legs. 
Lyme in itself, is indicative for causing memory loss & insomnia, but just don't think that is what is causing this. I have been experiencing a fine tremor too that can't be explained either. 

It all started when my Chiro Doc friend sent a letter to the NS that did my surgery, to let him know that there was a screw on top of a nerve and could STILL be the problem. I just wished that I knew, if it is still a problem going on in my neck because my neck has these tight, taught knots that come up and are heck. 

He told me that I had a nerve trapped under a screw in my neck. I had an ACD & F spinal diskectomy back in '06 and my arm would burn then. He told me that if, I didn't get it off of that nerve that I would lose the use of my limbs. :o

But, can't EVEN get the NS to listen, that did my surgery. I took him a letter that my doc, who is a friend wrote, but the NS just handed it back to me...like it didn't mean anything. >:o WHY?? Couldn't he just LOOK at it? He didn't even examine me, he just sent me home without ANY answers to my questions. But, you know MOST NS...they SEEM to THINK, they everything there is to know..without investigating. Sorry, but everyone that I have run across since...to check it out, won't even listen to me. I don't understand. 

I do sleep, but only 4 hours at a time and then I wake up. Most nights, I only will sleep a couple of hours and wake up, for no reason. Have to take strong sleep medication, just to get that amount of sleep or might not ever sleep at all. WILL wake up every hour. What's so strange is that when I wake up...it is not pain that wakes me. I just wake up and don't feel anything different, just awake. It isn't that I have to go to the bathroom or anything. 
My memory.....short term is HORRIBLE and that is an understatement! The house could be on fire and I would forget in a sec or two. :o My head hurts a lot and not only headaches, but head pain. The pain is mostly on my temple area, but it has pain all over and feels awful. 

If, only I could figure out what is causing the problem, but don't trust JUST any Neurosurgeon to touch my back or neck. I've tried to find a good NS or NL and saw one NL for a while, but he didn't have any answers for me...only wanted to give me medication and told me to get plenty of rest. Yeah....I'll do that..not. Don't think that my body is not going to let me do that..it seems. :/ 

I do have a theory to what is causing the leg problem, but wanted to get it out there...to see if there are anyone else out there dealing with the same issue. So many things are wrong with me that I just don't have a clue, to where it is coming from. I do feel that one doc could be the one responsible for it. 

PAINS, MEDICATIONS...AND SYMPTOMS...OF CONCERN.

                     

   
                          PAINS, MEDICATIONS...AND SYMPTOMS...OF CONCERN.

 I have many bad days due to my back in which I have learned to deal with and do not get outside much...as limited walking abilities and deal with fatigue a lot. At times, I wish that I could just throw out everything and hope one day I will weaned myself off and able to function like a normal person who wakes up refreshed and able to accomplish things. I just hating having to remember them all and the times of day. It is a pain...to just have to keep up with that. :o
Having to take meds...isn't a bit fun. Some have the mis-conceptions that having to take Morphine..is fun. No...I have to take it, but it comes in a pain patch. It is stronger than that they give you at the Hospital..supposedly..that is. I was so afraid to put my first patch on even. I was so afraid that I had to call my friend and ask him, what I was to expect. He said that I was over thinking it and to relax and just put it on that it would help control my pain. He was already taking a higher dose himself and was aware of what I was to expect...hopefully pain relief, for that was all that I needed. After, I relaxed and did as he said...and not think or worry @ it, it did seem to help and didn't bother me.
I have worn the Fentanyl patch for @ 6 years now and only upped my dose once. I actually went up to a higher dose one time, but it was short-lived. I just refused to raise it and after taking it for 2-3 months...titrated back down...to my second dose and have stayed there. I feel, no matter...I am gonna be in pain. I just have to endure some of it and face the pain. Yes, I do grit my teeth and bare a lot of pain and others don't see just how strong of a person..I really am. I could take the higher dose, but it is only going to call for an even higher dose later. SO, I decided that I was going to stay on a small dose and just deal with it. Some days are harder than others, but...I feel that I will need surgery or something, to get me back on my feet.  
 I do have to take a number of medications, but am trying to manage Fibromyalgia and Addison's disease, besides the numerous back herniations and pinched nerves. I think it more of being dependent on the prescription medications which is always a managing act to have a day where you are able to go out and get chores done. 
I am grateful to some of the natural alternatives that I have found! They really have given me more strength, to get through most of the hard days. I use essential oils that go through you olifactory nerves. Another words, you smell them and they are instantly working. My favorites are Peppermint..which, help me with Migraines, nausea and just smelling it..gives me a lift.  Sweet Basil...has joined the ranks too. It really boost my moral and helps with nausea. Lavender..is most people's favorite. It has such a lovely fragrance and is used for MANY different areas. But, I have so many oils that I use now that help me...I would be lost without them and their wonderful benefits. :)

For now deal with as less as possible to not to get to being so dependent and have any withdrawal symptoms. The fact that people who do not understand and think of your a drug addict is what really saddens me fo them not understanding all the things we go through in the bad days with flairs and with me a hurting back and heavy legs being all stiff and they do not understand those moments and days where it get so bad as you mainly are staying your home and go through periods of complete agony. And the only thing you can do is try to let it run its course and try things other than medications to get back, to a point where you can do things with dealing with any pain. The pain meds basically, just take off the edge and the Gabapentin(Neurontin) is helping me with with the nerve pain. Any friends or family that don't see...I stopped any explaining with them. They gonna think what they want to anyway...and I don't need to get stressed nor should I have to defend myself. 
It is sad really that so many are suffering and have to go through so much already...as it is. They really don't need the 12th degree, on how they deal with their pain.  

MY MEMORY these days...IS NOT DOING TO WELL. I FORGET..IN A SECOND OF WHAT IS GOING ON OR WHAT I was FOCUSED ON...OR/AND WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING. IT REALLY HAS ME CONCERNED OF WHAT IS GOING ON.. IS THIS SOMETHING THAT WILL EVER BE CORRECTED..OR WILL I BE LIKE THIS FOREVER? I mean...I KNOW THAT THE ADDISON'S IS PRETTY MUCH FOREVER...UNLESS, THEY DO FIND AN ADENOMA OR CYST ON MY PITUITARY..WHEN THEY DO the MRI, BUT..I AM PRAYING THAT THIS IS SOMETHING THEY CAN FIND IS CURABLE..OR FIXABLE.  IT IS WHY...I AM GOING TO DOCS...TO FIND, WHERE THE ROOT OF THIS PROBLEM LIES. 
SINCE, I APPARENTLY NEED TO WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING..THAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING TO ME. IF, I DON'T I WON'T REMEMBER. I KNOW, THAT IT SOUNDS RIDICULOUS, BUT IT IS TRUE THAT I JUST CAN'T RETAIN SOME THINGS AND IT IS HARD FOR ME TO RETRIEVE IT. I THINK, MY BRAIN FEELS EXHAUSTED AND OVERWORKED. I DO FEEL...HOWEVER, THAT SOMETHING IS WRONG AND HAS TO BE FOUND!! 
I AM EXPERIENCING WAY TO MUCH PAIN, BURNING, CRAMPING-MOSTLY IN MY CALF/FOOT MUSCLE AREA, BUT I HAVE MANY OTHER DEEP ROOTED PAINS. SOME EVEN FEEL VASCULAR AND MY BRAIN HURTS. I HAVE BEEN HAVING STRONG, SHARP PAINS THAT RUN THROUGH MY TEMPLE AREA MOSTLY, BUT HAVE PAIN OF ALL KINDS GOING ON IN MY HEAD. IT IS NOT THE SAME AS A HEADACHE...THESE ARE HEAD PAINS. 
I HAVE NOTICED THAT MY SPELLING HAS BEEN BACKWARDS, A LOT HERE LATELY. I MEAN, I COULD SPELL THE WORD COMPLETELY BACKWARD AND SOMETIMES, WILL DOUBLE THE LETTERS EVEN. ON OCCASION..I HAVE WRITTEN THE WORD..DOUBLE..BACK TO BACK..YES, THE SAME WORD. NOW, THAT IS NOT RIGHT AND I KNOW IT. I FIND MYSELF HAVING TO GO BACK OVER EACH AND EVERY LINE, TO MAKE SURE THAT I DIDN’T MISSPELL SOMETHING. 

WHEN, I USE MY MAIL AND COMPOSE A LETTER...IT HAS  AUTO CORRECT AND IT MAKES IT SOME EASIER. IF YOU MAKE A MISTAKE..IT CORRECTS IT.  I SHOULDN’T BE MAKING THOSE MISTAKES...IN THE FIRST PLACE. WHEN IN MY MIND...I SEE IT CORRECTLY, BUT ON THE PAPER WRITE IT DIFFERENTLY. (>Surprised smile)  I DON’T WANT TO MAKE THOSE MISTAKES. 
SOMETHING IS WRONG AND WITH THE PAIN THAT I AM HAVING IN MY BRAIN...IT MAKES ME WONDER, IF THERE ISN’T SOMETHING UP THERE..PRESSING ON SOMETHING THAT JUST HASN’T BEEN SEEN. MAYBE, IT IS SOME MICRO-ADENOMA OR SOME KIND OF CYST? I HAVE BEEN DX’D WITH AN EMPTY SELLA...AND THAT IS WHERE SOMETHING IS PRESSING ON YOUR PITUITARY. SO, IT IS VERY POSSIBLE THAT IT IS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT I MENTIONED EARLIER, BUT PRAY THAT IT IS NOT. THE ONLY THING IS...IF, IT IS...IT CAN BE REMOVED AND I MIGHT GO BACK TO HOW HEALTHY I WAS BEFORE. Hmmm...IT ALMOST SOUNDS LIKE IT WOULD BE BETTER. :o

BUT, I WANT WHATEVER IS WRONG..FOUND. WHAT’S SO BAD IS...THAT I CAN’T FIND A NEUROLOGIST, WHO CAN DIAGNOSE WHATEVER IS WRONG, IN MY BRAIN OR PITUITAY. I CAN’T FIND ONE PERIOD..OR A GOOD ONE THAT IS..WHO, KNOWS @ THIS PITUITARY ISSUE THAT I AM HAVING. 
     I HAVE TRIED SO HARD TO FIND ONE AND IT SEEMS UTTERLY IMPOSSIBLE AND I AM NOT GOING BACK TO SEMME’S AND MURPHY, IN MEMPHIS. I HAVE MADE UP MY MIND...THAT I JUST DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE WITH THE TREATMENT THAT I RECEIVED, WHILE THERE. THIS WHOLE PROCESS STARTED, AFTER I HAD THAT SURGERY ON MY NECK. I KNOW THAT I NEEDED THE SURGERY, BUT IT WAS DONE BY SOMEONE(NS) THAT I DIDN’T EVEN CHOSE. I WAS BEING SEEN BY A DIFFERENT DOC, WHO TOLD ME THAT HE WAS DOING MY SURGERY, NOT THIS OTHER DOC.  I HAVE GONE BACK SEVERAL TIMES AND PLEADED FOR HIM TO GO IN AND LOOK OR TO MAKE ABSOLUTELY SURE THAT EVERYTHING WAS FINE FROM THE C5-C6 SPINAL DISKECTOMY, BUT HE WOULDN’T GO IN AND LOOK. 

     NOW, I STAY SWOLLEN IN MY NECK A LOT AND THE PAIN IS ALMOST UNBEARABLE AT TIMES. BELOW, WHERE HE DONE THE LAST SURGERY(C5-C6), I AM IN AGONY. THAT AREA...CAN’T EVEN BE TOUCHED AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO.  ALSO, HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT I HAD A TUMOR IN MY NECK, RIGHT WHERE THERE IS AN "X" THAT MARKS THE SPOT ABOVE. Hmm...MAKES ME WONDER, WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY MUSCLES, TO CAUSE SUCH HAVOC!!  >:o
I TRY SO HARD TO STAY POSITIVE AND HOPEFUL THAT SOON, I WILL FIND A GOOD NEUROLOGIST, BUT FOR NOW..I AM STUCK HERE AND IN THIS MISERY. I EVEN HAVE WRITTEN “THE DOCTORS” IN HOPES THAT THEY WILL BE ABLE TO HELP ME FIND A NEUROLOGIST...OR POSSIBLY, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I MUST ADMIT THAT IT WOULD BE GREAT, IF THEY COULD GET ME EXAMINED AND DIAGNOSED PROPERLY...TO WHAT IS TAKING MY LIFE FROM ME.   

     WELL, I AM SKIPPING AROUND IT SEEMS AND AM BACK TO THE DOUBLE LETTERS ISSUE, BUT IT IS SOMETHING THAT IS REALLY BOTHERING ME. I AM ALREADY HAVING TROUBLE WITH MY SHORT-TERM MEMORY..NOW, THIS SKIPPING. MY BRAIN ACTUALLY FEELS LIKE IT HAS SOME ELECTRICAL RHYTHM TO IT AND LIKE IT SKIPS..LIKE A RECORD DOES, ON A TURNTABLE. SOMETIMES...IT IS MORE NOTICEABLE THAN OTHERS, BUT IT HAS DONE THIS FOR A WHILE NOW AND SEEMS LIKE, IT IS GETTING WORSE. AT FIRST, IT WAS LIKE A SMALL THUMP..EVERY NOW AND THEN, BUT IT HAS INCREASED IN INTENSITY AND FREQUENCY. IT DOES FEEL LIKE A RHYTHM OF SORT, BUT PULSATING. WHEN IT COMES TO THINKING OR DOING, IT CAN GO FROM ONE THING, TO THE NEXT AND SEEMS LIKE I CAN’T CONTROL THAT..SOMETIMES. (Surprised smile) I GET CONFUSED EASILY, IRRITATED AND IN A FOG. I WILL SMILE AND TRY, BUT INSIDE I FEEL LIKE CRYING.
    WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH..CAN REALLY CAN BE SCARY, BUT I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I FEEL LOST AT TIMES AND LIKE I AM IN SOME DEEP DARK HOLE AND NEED SOMEONE TO PULL ME OUT. NOT LITERALLY, MIND YOU...BUT A PERSON CAN ONLY HANDLE SO MUCH. I AM SO GRATEFUL THAT GOD IS WITH ME...OR I DON'T THINK THAT I WOULD BE HERE. I REALLY DO BELIEVE THAT AND THE LORD ALWAYS COMFORTS ME, IN MY TIME OF NEED. 
SOMETIMES, I FEEL LIKE I AM HANGING FROM A CLIFF, FROM ALL THE STRESS IN MY LIFE AND I KNOW THAT IT SOUNDS LIKE I AM UNDER AN EXTREME AMOUNT OF STRESS AND MAYBE, THIS COULD BE ANXIETY RELATED. NOPE...I LET GOD HAVE ALL MY STRESS. WELL, I AM NOT GOING TO LIE AND SAY THAT I DON'T HAVE STRESS...BUT I KNOW THAT GOD IS THERE AND HE ALWAYS TAKES IT FROM ME...AND COMFORTS ME. 
HE IS WHO...THAT GETS ME THROUGH IT ALL. (Smile) 

BUT, @ MY FINGER RIGOR OR JERK. IT IS BAD AND I HAVE NOTICED...GETTING WORSE. DUE TO THE FINGER ON MY RIGHT HAND...I WILL WRITE DOUBLE TRIPPLE OR MORE..seee, I LEFT IT...AND IT CAN BE THAT BAD, WHERE I CAN'T CONTROL IT. 
ALSO, I EXPERIENCE A CONSTANT TREMOR, MOST TIMES IT IS IN MY UPPER BODY, BUT ON OCCASION HERE LATELY....I HAVE BEEN FEELING IT IN MY LEGS TOO. (Sad smile)  MUST SAY...THAT IT IS A MISERABLE FEELING AND CLOSELY RESEMBLES "RLS". 
MY LEFT HAND HAS BECOME COMPLETELY IMMOBILE AT TIMES AND WHEN, YOU CAN’T MOVE YOUR HAND OR MAKE A FIST AT ALL, THEN IT MAKES YOU WONDER..."WHAT IS GOING ON??" IT MAKES ME THINK @ THAT SURGERY IN MY NECK AGAIN...AND IF, THEY COULD POSSIBLY LEFT SOMETHING ON TOP OF A NERVE. I WAS TOLD THAT THEY DID, BUT I CAN'T PROVE IT. I ONLY HAVE THE WORD OF A WELL-RESPECTED CHIRO THAT DONE SOME X-RAYS AND SEEN, WHERE IT WAS PRESSING ON MY BRACHIAL PLEXUS.  YOU CAN UNDERSTAND, IF...SOMETHING TAKES YOUR LIFE...AND DOES WITH IT WHAT IT WANTS...YOU ONLY WANT RESOLUTION. 
I DON'T HAVE CONTROL OVER THESE THINGS.WHEN, MY LEFT HAND HAS THIS PARALYZED FEELING..I CAN’T STAND ANYONE TO TOUCH THAT HAND. IT FEELS SO STRANGE AND CAN'T STAND ANYONE TO MESS WITH IT. IT DOES NOT FEEL LIKE IT IS MY OWN HAND, IT FEELS FOREIGN. 
MY RIGHT FINGER IS SIMILAR, BUT IT HAS A MIND OF ITS OWN. IT WILL JERK AND MOVE ON ITS OWN AND SO, DOES MY RIGHT SHOULDER. I CAN’T CONTROL IT. MY HANDS FEEL SO WEAK AND MY LEFT HAND HAS LOST COMPLETE FUNCTION SEVERAL TIMES. I WILL HAVE TO JUST LAY IT ASIDE, ON A PILLOW OR SOMETHING. I CAN'T USE IT...IT FEELS SO STRANGE AND USELESS. 
I SURE HOPE THAT THIS ISN'T MY HEART. PLEASE GOD, DON'T LET IT BE MY HEART. I HAVE SEEN A CARDIOLOGIST, BUT IT WAS LAST YEAR AND HE DONE ALL THE TESTS..BUT, I DIDN'T GET TO WEAR THAT MONITOR THINGY. I WAS SUPPOSE TO, BUT I DONNO WHAT HAPPENED? I CALLED BACK A LITTLE LATER AND HE WAS RETIRING. OH, NOW THAT WOULD EXPLAIN WHY I DIDN'T GET TO FINISH. 
ALL OF MY OTHER TEST THAT HE DONE WERE GOOD AND NORMAL, SO I DIDN'T FEEL AT THAT TIME, I NEEDED TO BE REFERRED OVER TO ANOTHER ONE...DUE TO HIS RETIREMENT, BUT...I SURE WISH NOW THAT I WOULD HAVE GOT TO WEAR THAT MONITOR(24hr), JUST TO MAKE ABSOLUTELY SURE.   
ALSO, I AM HAVING TROUBLE MAKING MY HANDS AND LEGS DO, WHAT MY BRAIN WANTS THEM TO DO. I WILL GET CONFUSED EASILY, OVERWHELMED AND CAN'T FOCUS WELL. ALSO, OTHER THINGS THAT I DO ARE BACKWARD. SAY..IF, I GO INTO A ROOM, TO DO SOMETHING...AND THE LIGHTS ARE ON...I WILL TURN THEM OFF. :O I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM DOING THAT AND THERE ARE OTHER THINGS THAT I NOTICED, I AM DOING. IF, IT IS TIME TO TAKE MY MEDICINE, I WON'T TAKE IT...BUT HAVE NOTICED THAT I WILL HOLD THE MEDICINE IN MY HAND. I HAVE EVEN HELD IT IN MY MOUTH. WHY?? I DONNO WHY. I WILL HOLD MY BREATH SOMETIMES AND DON'T EVEN REALIZE THAT I AM DOING IT. THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS THAT NEED TO BE ANSWERED.  

I HAVE NOTICED THAT ....I CAN THINK AND DO SOMETIMES...BUT, IF I DON'T REACT FAST...I WILL GO TO SOMETHING ELSE AND FORGET @ IT ENTIRELY. IF, SOMEONE CALLS AND I HAVE TO TELL THEM SOMETHING IMPORTANT...I BETTER DO IT QUICKLY OR THEY WON'T GET TOLD. I WILL FORGET...AND IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW IMPORTANT IT IS. THIS WORRIES ME... 
SO MANY THINGS GOING ON IN MY BODY. MY MUSCLES WON’T FUNCTION PROPERLY AND SEEM LIKE THEY HAVE A MIND OF THEIR OWN. I AM SO EXHAUSTED BY IT ALL AND IT IS MOST DAYS THAT I FEEL THIS WAY. AT LEAST, 9 OUT OF 10 DAYS...ARE PRETTY ROUGH. ALL I WANT TO BE..IS HEALTHY AGAIN AND ABLE TO GO AND DO, WITH MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS.  
HERE LATELY...WHAT HAS BEEN DRIVING ME CRAZY IS THAT I AM SO FORGETFUL. IT IS SO BAD..THAT IF, I DON'T BLURT SOMETHING OUT THAT IS ON MY MIND, I WILL FORGET. I DON’T HAVE MUCH TIME TO GET SOMETHING OUT OF MY MOUTH AND IT MAKES IT HARD TO GET ANYTHING DONE. I CAN'T RETAIN ANYTHING, IT SEEMS. I HAVE TO BLURT A LOT OUT AND HATE DOING THAT...BUT, IF I DON'T I WILL LOSE IT. I WILL LITERALLY LOSE TRACK ENTIRELY OF WHAT I WAS EVEN TALKING @...OR WHAT I WANTED TO SAY. 
COULD THIS BE AN INFECTION OF SOME SORTS? I AM WONDERING, SINCE I HAVE SO MANY SYMPTOMS THAT IT SEEMS LIKE IT IS SYSTEMIC.(THROUGH-OUT THE BODY) IT SEEMS LIKE IT AFFECTS EVERY SYSTEM THAT I POSSESS.  IT COULD BE MY CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM THAT IS AFFECTED, BUT I CAN'T FIND A GOOD NEUROLOGIST, TO RULE THAT OUT AND THIS IS GETTING MONOTONOUS. I DO KNOW THAT MY MOTOR SKILLS, SPEECH, VISION, MEMORY, FORETHOUGHT, DEPTH-PERCEPTION, BALANCE, GAIT, INVOLUNTARY MUSCLE MOVEMENTS, SPELLING, WRITING AND THINKING PROCESS, ETC...ARE ALL AFFECTED. THEY ARE OUT OF WHACK AND I AM CONCERNED. THE REASON I SAY...THE ETC...IS IT GOES DEEP AND FWHEEEW..IS ALL THAT I CAN SAY. BELIEVE IT OR NOT...BECAUSE THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO THIS...THAN, JUST WHAT I HAVE SAID.  
I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHERE THIS IS ORIGINATING FROM AND WHAT I CAN DO TO STOP IT. 
THANKS FOR LISTENING TO MY VENTING...BUT, AS YOU CAN SEE...I DO HAVE SOMETHING TO BE CONCERNED @. 
MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU. Smile

THIS LEG PAIN IS KILLING ME!!!!

Soo TIRED of this LEG pain!!! IT JUST WON'T STOP!! I can stress it enough..on HOW  bad and painful this is. >:o
What is causing them to feel such an intense deep ache? And, they feel almost raw and tight...like someone has whipped them with bolts of a whip. I can't use them too much either..they constantly stay tensed up. It almost feels like it could be the veins that's on fire. It is like they have been roped up for a week or bound and someone taking my knee cap off. Besides, all of the pain underneath the knee. 
Literally, they feel THAT bad, but here I lay...@ to go out of my mind with this stuff...or so, I think. I am getting head pain on top of it...with pins/needles and numbness and sharp stabbing pains..on my face. Ughhh...so tired of this stuff. I try...each and every day to battle this, but must admit that it is taking it's toll on me. :'( 
Taking my hot bath early tonight...I need relief of ANY kind. 
It is wearing me down guys...just from dealing with all of it...all of the time. IT is just relentless and the cramps are so deep that I can feel them all the way through to inside of my feet. Do you remember how it felt..when, you were a kid...and someone would THUMP your ear? Well, I get that deep THUMP sensation...down the backside of BOTH of my legs and IT is painful. :o 
IT is horrible and I know that there HAS to be an answer to this MISERY!!! I am mentally exhausted from dealing with it. Today...I started itching really bad, on my arms...and after,  I scratched so intently... BOTH arms felt like they were swollen and on fire!!! CRAZY...is what it is and I don't understand WHAT it is going to take to figure it out or what I need to do anymore to make this end!!! 
Sorry for complaining, but guys...I am exhausted by this and at the END of my rope. I need your help to figure this out...because I don't know what to do anymore. Anyone..have any ideas of what this is...or questions? I just need ideas from anyone, who knows what these symptoms are telling me. :P 

ANSWERS...THAT IS WHAT I WANT TO KNOW!!! WHAT IS AT THE ROOT OF ALL THIS??

 ANSWERS...THAT IS ALL I WANT. WHY CAN'T SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE MY PROBLEMS ARE COMING FROM? WHICH, ONE OF THESE ARE THE CULPRITS? IS IT THE CHIARI MALFORMATION, THE AVM, THE ADDISON'S DISEASE, THE FIBROMYALGIA...THE SURGERY ON MY NECK..OR THE ONE IN MY LEFT JAW? WELL, LOOKS LIKE WE MAY NEVER KNOW...BUT, I WOULD LIKE TO...BEFORE, ONE OF THEM DOES ME IN...

I am still in bed most days. If, I do anything...to use a muscle. And, BASICALLY..ANYTHING THAT WE DO...REQUIRES THE USE OF A MUSCLE. 
All the many MUSCLES IT TAKES TO MOVE!!! UGGHH,..YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND..IT HURTS... :"(
It is hard for me to reach even. I have days where I just lay in bed and wonder what happened to my life. I never envisioned being stuck in bed. I am an outgoing person..one who likes to be around people. I sing..or I did sing. Now, I dream. 
When, I...finally got dx'd with Addison's, I thought I would be so much better..but, I am still having a lot of problems and episodes. Since, we talked last...I have had a few episodes that really worry me. I woke up one night..tingling all over...heavily, like hard raindrops were hitting every part of my body. My face was extra numb..because it stays numb on the left side all the time. So, this was extraordinarily strong and noticed that my tongue was getting number and I thought that I felt pressure to go to the restroom and got up. When, I did...the room went dark and it was spinning. I felt like I was going to faint. I thought, if I went to the restroom...maybe, I would feel better...but, I was wrong. I didn't feel better and knew that if, I didn't lay down on the floor...I was going to hit it! I lay there and I prayed. I really thought that I was a goner. I wanted it to go away and I got up and made my way to my husband..who, was sound asleep at 4am. He didn't hear me say, "Call 911. I need to go to the Hospital." But, I wound up laying on the floor again and he covered me up and gave me a pillow. I woke up the next morning on the sofa. I was fine and didn't feel bad at all. I don't understand what happened to me. I found out that an "Empty Sella" is more than what I  had thought. It is over the Pituitary...and I have Addison's..and just trying to put all the pieces together. I
have severe tension and pain..at the back of my head. It feels like someone has a fist balled up...and I am laying on it. IT does not feel good and it is hard to get a comfortable position to rest. It is hard for me to lay on my left side, because I seem to get more numb. I also have a lot of pain over my temples, mostly left...and if, there is pressure over my Pit..then, couldn't that mean I could have a cyst or something there that they are missing like cerebrospinal fluid filling my Pituitary. 
Another thing..is that my eyes get so blurry sometime. And, I keep an Aura around my eyes. Everything gives off a glare. I keep my room darker and the computer screen brightness set darker. I also got that Flux something or another that automatically will adjust my screen to the time of day. It helps. I just want to find what is going on before anything bad happens. I feel that I need to push forward with this. I don't need to ignore it. So, I just pray that I gave enough clues to others out there...that could possibly know where this is coming from. I would appreciate any comments on it.
Oh..I forgot to mention that I have sore spots that come up on my head..especially, where I got hit in a Car Accident. I was hit on the top of my head, when the guy hit something in the road..and I hit the roof of the Car with my head. I will literally get a goose egg up on the same area. Also, the other sore areas are random areas on my head and they feel like someone has pulled my hair or how it feels, after you take a poney-tail holder out and all that area is sore. I will get these little hard balls on my scalp too. Usually, they are on my temples or over my ears..on my head.
By the way, what is a mastoid effusion? I have that too. I guess, I need to look that one up too. My memory is so bad that I forget everything. I have a good long term memory, but short...nope. IT is not there. I get sooooo frustrated by it!!!
I don't want that episode thingy again...IT was horrible. :o 
I hurt under my left ear too, but since I had surgery...I just feel it is adhesions or something. Could it be that the adhesions from the surgery...are causing complications somewhere? 
I have pain over the left back side of my head. Where the AVM is..so, it is close to the Chiari...and the Empty Sella...and also, where I had a bone spur removed from my left ear. So, where is my problem coming from? Which one would be responsible...or all? :P I just want answers and get to the BOTTOM of it. Also, I had an ACD & F, which is a spinal diskectomy of my C5-C6 and that could even be a part of all this...since, a doc did say that my neck is swollen and others say it too. It is visible and I feel it. It will get tight and knots up too..in the muscles there. I have to rub Moxibustion on it and that helps loosen the intensity some. The leg pain is intense too and all day, I run the massager part on my adjustable bed. I don't know what I would do without it. I have actually burned one motor up..and that is no lie. Seriously, I had to call the manufacturer My legs are that bad and what i worry..is that the Docs just don't see how bad things really are, but I smile through the pain..if, I can. IF i am having a bad day...I might can cover, but the really bad ones..I am in bed. And, that massager is running. 
And, to add to the mix...my JAW is hurting..right beside the bone spur surgery. I don't know where this is coming from????

THIS IS HOW I USED TO LOOK AND YOU COULD SEE THAT I FELT GOOD AND WAS IN NO PAIN. I WAS WORKING AT OPRYLAND, SINGING AND DANCING IN A SHOW CALLED COUNTRY MUSIC USA. THE BEST SHOW IN THE PARK...AS THEY WOULD SAY. :o
I MISS FEELING GOOD AND BEING LIVELY. 

I need to know...What should I do? Where should I go? I have seen where there are wellness places that boost a person's immune system and show them how to eat...for wellness. Like a place called
"Hipocrates"  I would love to go there. Maybe, they could revive my life.
 "Your food is your medicine and your medicine your food." But, I can't afford that and know that I would benefit...but I have to decide, which I need to seek out to do first. Oh, I donno..things are mighty hard around here and my mom/dad are in their 70's and mom is already sick herself. I just don't want to add to any more that is already going on. "There is enough trouble in a day." AND...NOT ENOUGH HOURS. 
I need to find a Doc that knows what this is. If, it is my Pituitary(Addison's), CM, AVM or the ACD & F, or the ear surgery.(Bone spur removed from there). How am I going to do that? What the heck? hmmm...a definite canumdrum....HELP!! 
YOU CAN SEE JUST WHAT ALL...THAT I AM DEALING WITH. A LOT AND SO FRUSTRATED TOO, BECAUSE IT IS TAKING SO LONG...TO GET WELL, BUT I AM A FIGHTER AND A PATIENT PERSON. THANK GOD...AND HE WILL GIVEME THE STRENGTH THAT I NEED TO MAKE IT THROUGH ANYTHING. :D
I WILL CONTINUE..FOR HOW EVER LONG IT TAKES...TO GET THERE TO WELLNESS.

Thank any who took the time to read all what I deal with. Sorry, if I skip or anything...I have a bad memory and get frustrated. I get confused easily and irritated, edgy...but patient and won't say anything. I will just get quiet. Oh...I hope someone knows something..because HERE..WE GO!
God Bless you. I just pray that some how, I will find that right Doc...who can give me the answer to the root of the problem. So that I can get on with living. :)

WE SHOULD SEE HOW BLESSED WE ARE. Psalms 33:4-22

What the LORD says is right and true.
He is faithful in everything he does.
The LORD loves what is right and fair.
The earth is full of his faithful love. 

The heavens were made when the LORD commanded it to happen.
All of the stars were created by the breath of his mouth.
He gathers the waters of the sea together. 
He puts the oceans in their places.
Let the whole earth have respect for the LORD.
Let all of the people in the world honor him.

The LORD blocks the sinful plans of the nations. 
He keeps them from doing what they want to do.
But the plans of the Lord stand firm forever.
What he wants to do will stand for all time. 

Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD.
Blessed are the people he chose to be his own.
From heaven the LORD looks down and sees everyone.
From his thrown he watches all those who live on the earth.
He creates the hearts of all people. 
He is aware of everything they do.

A king isn't saved just because his army is big.
A soldier doesn't escape just because he is very strong. 
People can't trust a horse to save them either.
Though it is very strong, It can't save them.
But the LORD looks with favor on those who respect him.
He watches over those who put their hope in his faithful love.
He watches over them to save them from death.
He wants to keep them alive when there is no food in the land. 

We wait in hope for the LORD.
He helps us. He is like a shield that keeps us safe.
Our hearts are full of joy because of him.
We trust in him, because he is holy.
Lord, may your faithful love rest on us. 
We put our hope in you. 
(Psalms 33: 4-22)

LIFE IS A BLESSING FROM GOD...AND WE NEED TO SHOW RESPECT TO THE LORD. HE CREATED US AND GIVES US THE BREATH...THAT WE USE TO BREATHE. 
IF, YOU LOOK AROUND...YOU KNOW THAT GOD IS OUR CREATOR..AND THE SALVATION TO OUR SOULS.
GOD BLESS ALWAYS. :)

TRAVEL...FUN...INCOME.

I HAVE SOMETHING THAT I DO WANT TO SHARE WITH EVERYONE.

IT IS A NEW VENTURE THAT ME AND MY HUBBY ARE DOING...AND THE REASON THAT WE ARE DOING IT...IS BECAUSE WE HAVE SEEN FIRST HAND, HOW WELL THIS WORKS AND ALL THE BENEFITS THAT GO WITH IT. 

WE WANT TO BE RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF IT, BECAUSE IT IS GREAT! PLUS, WE GET TRAVEL TO  BOOT. WHAT ELSE COULD U WANT? U WILL HAVE THE BEST TRAVEL ARRANGEMENTS THAT CAN'T BE BEAT, LUXURIOUS HOTELS, LIMOS/TRAVEL CAR, ETC. 

SO MUCH MORE TO KNOW @ THIS VENTURE...AND THE FUN IS ALL INCLUSIVE TOO. THE MEAN WHILE..U CAN BRING PEOPLE IN AND MAKE AN INCOME TOO.

                               

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HAVING A MEETING TO GIVE A PRESENTATION: TUES. 7/16 @ 4:00pm-Contact Karen Elmore

Ok..I HAVE HAND SELECTED A FEW TO MEET AT MY MOMS...TO SHOW U SOMETHING GREAT!

We are meeting at moms Tues. at 4:00pm 

(We will have drinks and snacks, but if...u want to bring something, let me know.)

U HAVE GOT TO COME. WE ARE GIVING A TRIP AWAY TO...CANCUN OR PUERTO VALLARTA.

U HEARD ME RIGHT! COME TO LISTEN IN AND U WILL BE ABLE TO WIN A TRIP TO THE BEAUTIFUL CANCUN! I HAVE BEEN THERE...AND IT IS A SIGHT TO SEE!

SEE YA...

OH, LET ME KNOW IF...UR COMING. 

U KNOW WHAT U NEED TO DO...YEP, GET IN TOUCH WITH ME.  

IF, U DO ANYTHING...WATCH THIS VIDEO(BELOW). IT DESCRIBES A BIT @ THIS PROGRAM AND U WILL UNDERSTAND A LOT MORE @ THE PROGRAM. IF, UR INTERESTED CONTACT ME(KAREN ELMORE)...AND I WILL GET U ON UR WAY! :D 

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I WILL BE WATCHING FOR U...CHANGE UR LIFE..NOW! DO SOMETHING THAT U LOVE AND HAVE FUN...AND MAKE MONEY TOO! U CAN DO IT! ^_^ 

FOR A CHANGE...I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN...

            This is a pic of my mom and me, when our ages were comparable. I do believe we favor a whole lot, but I look a lot like my dad too. Just thought, I would put some pics up...and share a little of my story.  



http://www.livestrong.com/article/126939-autoimmune-disorders-attack-nervous-system/


Well, thought i would save this. I have been reading up on whatever this could be...and my first Endo..said Addison's, but then said it could be Cushing's. So, I am trying to narrow this down a bit...if, i can.
I want to really give this my all... so, the docs can do their job better. I have learned ...and know that...if, u hurt pretty much all over ur body..it could be a bit perplexing to anyone and most docs are gonna think Fibro..because it fits to them, because it is widespread pain, but I know...This is more. NOT saying fibro isn't bad...heck, i got that too. No, I just know something is taking my COMPLETE MUSCLE USE...just taking it AWAY. I have pain with every movement, i can't reach, pull, push or lay...without pain and I don't know what to do anymore. I feel, it is progressing and taking over...and NO, it is NOT because I haven't used them. It is hard...to keep me down in the bed...i fight it, but when...every little movement sends a pain...u get to where...u just slow down a bit, then when that movement gets unbearable...u keep pushing through, all the while going to docs and traveling here and traveling there...and seeming like ur getting nowhere. I am so tired of seeing docs...i wish i never had to see another! BUT, how or who is going to find what is destroying my muscles or nerves...or veins. IT feels like ALL of them...and the bones included. I am so worried...well, not worried...but concerned that whatever this is...it don't play.
I just want to be able to wake up in the morning and clean my house...turn my music on and dance around...as I clean. I want to be able to stand in front of my vanity...and brush my teeth and get ready, for the day...without being in utter agony and without the tears flowing down my face.

           Acting up with a couple of friends. Nahh...not too bad lol We had just had a good dinner and got the music playing. We had a good evening just listening to different tunes.

For a change...I want to be me again.
Me again...the person, who always was driven to live and laugh and love. I still am driven to do all those things, but I am a little slower in my movements. Yeah, I do live...right here in this spot...mostly in this bed and I would rather be out enjoying the Sunshine and feel the breeze go through my hair. Laugh..yes, of course I get some of those...and grateful for my boys....for them..and my parents, because they are the ones who have kept me a going. Well, I was also blessed with a wonderful hubby and he takes care of me. My great parents, do so much too. Mom is always cooking and trying to make sure i have something to eat and dad....well, he is a character...who is always making me smile. So blessed. So, I have love but sometimes we have to try and not let those who love us, to see our pain. I got real good at it there for a while, but the pain just grew tooo unbearable for me to hide. I have learned to grin and bear it a lot and after a while, all of us would grow a little weary...especially, if nothing is changing...but this is progressing and I am finding it hard to move at all some days, but lay and not move any muscles...if that is possible. It is not possible.
I am getting a little more concerned...yes, I guess i am worried some, because mom/dad are tired and I need to be the one...who is taking care of them...now. My boys have grown up seeing me sick and in bed...mostly. Well, Bryan was 8 when my body started falling apart and u know...us moms have stuff to do...things that make their world better...like a tickle and i am talking @ a full blown tickle attack. I like to joke around, laugh and just be mom. But, i really did those things...if, it almost killed me...i did it, because I am a good mom and I love being a mom...more than anything. My boys mean more to me than anything...more than the world even. They are my life.

Shane Michael May...my oldest is in The Army now. He is 21...good-looking and really a good singer. Yeah...both my boys got the singing from our family...and me...lol   I am happy mom, because Shane is so talented and brave. He was introduced to music...at an early age. He got to experience it...while I was singing. I was in my seventh month of pregnancy with him,..and he loved it. He was moving all around. I was singing for a Christmas party and the show was quite long. As he was growing up...we raised him around music with all the family. I was even booked to sing 4 hour shows...by myself and things were great and we all were happy...but later, things changed..and he was away from us for a long time. I can say...I have missed a big portion of his life, but it was not by my choice. I feel that I have missed most of his life...and hate it, but it was just meant to be that way, i guess. Nahh...it was because fate dealt us some ugly cards, but we can still be close. I just wished...i was the one he could've came to sometimes, but he wasn't allowed...but that is another story. 

Bryan Nicholas Elmore is my youngest and still at home. Thank God or I would have done lost it, for he has been my light...during all the dark days that I have been in. He is a good kid and is our song leader, at Church and is becoming a great golfer, does tournaments and everything. Sing...yeah, he can sing and does come across stiff-lipped in the pic, but he was being cool. ok, I guess he is lol 

Love, yeah...I have been loved and am loved and I will always love, for I never was a selfish person or mean. U know, I prayed for a big heart from God and do believe He gave it to me...Yup, because I always have been a giver and not a taker. Now, I am so sensitive...and when my Hormone goes haywire...look out, for I can be sooo touchy. I mean, even more sensitive and the least thing can do me harm...easily.
I can cry for no reason. Well, Bryan says that I can cry over a commercial. Well, I guess i could...and I actually have lol. (well, it was the progressive "Flo" commercial...and I thought, it was a movie preview...and was into it..but then, Flo appears...hehehe oh well. :o

              Bryan, my younger son...and dad..Gary. He's my hubby too of course lol. He is just a little shorter than Bryan. He is 6'1 now.  

I just don't want to spend the rest of my life...in bed. NOOOO....I have got a lot of living to do. We have got to find what is attacking my muscles and nerves and nip it...fix it or something. It feels like something is literally trying to kill me. I feel like a ticking time bomb and no one is getting in any hurry to fix me! Stuck in bed...and in pain...it is no fun and it is soooo boring too that laying here is driving me nuts. Shoot, if I can...i try to get up and do what I can, but with consequences. I pay for every move I make. Writing my pain out helps me and it keeps my mind sharp. as it can be...under the circumstances of having to take all this stupid medicine. I am bruising now...for now reason and I can hurt my own self...laying in bed. If, i rub my foot with the other one...I have to be easy or it would hurt.

This is my inner thigh and looks horrible...and I didn't hit anything...so, how did I bruise that? Really..I did not do a thing! Bruises popping up here and there and I don't have to hit a darn thing. I was on an Aspirin regime, but when these appeared...I quit for a little while.
 I have so many symptoms that it has to be more than one thing going on at a time. Well, i have been diagnosed with all of this....beeep:  CM-Chiari Malformation(due to Car Accident-hit hard on top of head)
             AVM-Arterior Venous Malformation(Doc said, I was probably born w/it...probably?) 
             "Empty Sella"-Found that these usually go w/CM's
              Mastoid Effusion- I still don't know what this is.
             T3-T4 compressed fracture-I hurt so bad at the back of my neck.
             T8-T12 herniated disks w/hypertrophy-This is mostly responsible for me being in bed, I think.
             ...and now, after seeing an Endocrinologist because I was also feeling run down and un-well.                                            Found...or he thought, I had Addison's disease, but later said it looked more like Cushing's disease. My hormones are also going crazy and it is hard enough...to deal with all of the above....by itself, without all of this too..So, keep me in ur prayers...and I thank u. I will continue to fight..."Lord Willing" things will get better. 
               

                       I was actually in a bikini...in this shot. A friend of mine talked me into posing...hahaha and at the time, thought it would fun. Now, I look back on it and am glad that I did....because I can at least see me...again...from a good point of time...in my life. :)

I just want answers...and to be able to pin-point more to the Doc, where it feels it is coming from. Maybe, give the docs more of a direction to go in...to where they need to focus on. Do u know what i mean? I can't give up...and just lay here and suffer everyday. I feel it could be "MS"...and the longer I wait to get diagnosed...the more irreversible damage could be done. But I am really trying to stay positive...and being positive is everything...like having hope. God gives me so much and I know, one day I will be able to be out of this house again...and walk, function and SING again. :)
I have been thinking @ getting the surgery done on my back..so, i can at least get up and move some. Hopefully...can get what else is going on taken care of...soon. I am seeing an Endocrinologist and a Hematologist for it, so maybe they will be able to sort what is going on in there out. I just want to live again...or at least be able to move around and do some things.
Well, I am hurting so bad right now, the thought of surgery is looking better and better to me, but just didn't want anyone cutting on me again. I really feel Prolotherapy could be the answer, but...it sure looks scary...and so, does surgery though. Prolotherapy is where they shoot ur back with some kind of sugar water...or something like that...into ur spine and it encourages inflammation, to that area. So, inflammation..encourages healing. A more natural approach and one I heard works.
I can be fixed...I truly believe that...and when, my back gets better and I can move...then, I will be able to function like a human being again...and at least be able to walk better or sit..soon. I hope, cause all i seem to be able to do...is lay down and after the first month of that...I knew, something had to give. It is pretty bad..when u have a list of things wrong with u and ur not really sure...where all the pain is coming from. Sure can't find the answer to the root of my problem...yet, but thankful prayers work...and keep me going. It is great to receive them.
It has been a long time, since I was me...but I want to be me again. Nothing is impossible and The Man Himself is watching over...so, with The Lord and His Will...I will be made well soon. God Bless always...

20 PAIN KILLERS IN UR KITCHEN. A GREAT ALTERNATIVE TO TAKING MEDICINE!

20 Pain Killers in your Kitchen

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A GREAT ALTERNATIVE TO TAKING MEDICATION!!!!
20 Painkillers in Your Kitchen

Make muscle pain a memory with ginger

When Danish researchers asked achy people to jazz up their diets with ginger, it eased muscle and joint pain, swelling and stiffness for up to 63 percent of them within two months. Experts credit ginger’s potent compounds called gingerols, which prevent the production of pain-triggering hormones. The study-recommended dose: Add at least 1 teaspoon of dried ginger or 2 teaspoons of chopped ginger to meals daily.

Cure a toothache with cloves

Got a toothache and can’t get to the dentist? Gently chewing on a clove can ease tooth pain and gum inflammation for two hours straight, say UCLA researchers. Experts point to a natural compound in cloves called eugenol, a powerful, natural anesthetic. Bonus: Sprinkling a ¼ teaspoon of ground cloves on meals daily may also protect your ticker. Scientists say this simple action helps stabilize blood sugar, plus dampen production of artery-clogging cholesterol in as little as three weeks.

Heal heartburn with cider vinegar

Sip 1 tablespoon of apple cider vinegar mixed with 8 ounces of water before every meal, and experts say you could shut down painful bouts of heartburn in as little as 24 hours. “Cider vinegar is rich in malic and tartaric acids, powerful digestive aids that speed the breakdown of fats and proteins so your stomach can empty quickly, before food washes up into the esophagus, triggering heartburn pain,” explains Joseph Brasco, M.D., a gastroenterologist at the Center for Colon and Digestive Diseases in Huntsville, AL.

Erase earaches with garlic

Painful ear infections drive millions of Americans to doctors’ offices every year. To cure one fast, just place two drops of warm garlic oil into your aching ear twice daily for five days. This simple treatment can clear up ear infections faster than prescription meds, say experts at the University of New Mexico School of Medicine. Scientists say garlic’s active ingredients (germanium, selenium, and sulfur compounds) are naturally toxic to dozens of different pain-causing bacteria. To whip up your own garlic oil gently simmer three cloves of crushed garlic in a half a cup of extra virgin olive oil for two minutes, strain, then refrigerate for up to two weeks, suggests Teresa Graedon, Ph.D., co-author of the book, Best Choices From The People’s Pharmacy. For an optimal experience, warm this mix slightly before using so the liquid will feel soothing in your ear canal.


Chase away joint and headache pain with cherries

Latest studies show that at least one in four women is struggling with arthritis, gout or chronic headaches. If you’re one of them, a daily bowl of cherries could ease your ache, without the stomach upset so often triggered by today’s painkillers, say researchers at East Lansing ’s Michigan State University . Their research reveals that anthocyanins, the compounds that give cherries their brilliant red color, are anti-inflammatories 10 times stronger than ibuprofen and aspirin. “Anthocyanins help shut down the powerful enzymes that kick-start tissue inflammation, so they can prevent, as well as treat, many different kinds of pain,” explains Muraleedharan Nair, Ph.D., professor of food science at Michigan State University . His advice: Enjoy 20 cherries (fresh, frozen or dried) daily, then continue until your pain disappears.


Fight tummy troubles with fish
Indigestion, irritable bowel syndrome, inflammatory bowel diseases...if your belly always seems to be in an uproar, try munching 18 ounces of fish weekly to ease your misery. Repeated studies show that the fatty acids in fish, called EPA and DHA, can significantly reduce intestinal inflammation, cramping and belly pain and, in some cases, provide as much relief as corticosteroids and other prescription meds. “EPA and DHA are powerful, natural, side effect-free anti-inflammatories, that can dramatically improve the function of the entire gastrointestinal tract,” explains biological chemist Barry Sears, Ph.D., president of the Inflammation Research Foundation in Marblehead , MA . For best results, look for oily fish like salmon, sardines, tuna, mackerel, trout and herring.

Prevent PMS with yogurt
Up to 80 percent of women will struggle with premenstrual syndrome and its uncomfortable symptoms, report Yale researchers. The reason: Their nervous systems are sensitive to the ups and downs in estrogen and progesterone that occur naturally every month. But snacking on 2 cups of yogurt a day can slash these symptoms by 48 percent, say researchers at New York ’s Columbia University . “Yogurt is rich in calcium, a mineral that naturally calms the nervous system, preventing painful symptoms even when hormones are in flux,” explains Mary Jane Minkin, M.D., a professor of gynecology at Yale University .


Tame chronic pain with turmeric

Studies show turmeric, a popular East Indian spice, is actually three times more effective at easing pain than aspirin, ibuprofen or naproxen, plus it can help relieve chronic pain for 50 percent of people struggling with arthritis and even fibromyalgia, according to Cornell researchers. That’s because turmeric’s active ingredient, curcumin, naturally shuts down cyclooxygenase 2, an enzyme that churns out a stream of pain-producing hormones, explains nutrition researcher Julian Whitaker, M.D. and author of the book, Reversing Diabetes. The study-recommended dose: Sprinkle 1/4 teaspoon of this spice daily onto any rice, poultry, meat or vegetable dish.


End endometrial pain with oats

The ticket to soothing endometriosis pain could be a daily bowl of oatmeal. Endometriosis occurs when little bits of the uterine lining detach and grow outside of the uterus. Experts say these migrating cells can turn menstruation into a misery, causing so much inflammation that they trigger severe cramping during your period, plus a heavy ache that drags on all month long. Fortunately, scientists say opting for a diet rich in oats can help reduce endometrial pain for up to 60 percent of women within six months. That’s because oats don’t contain gluten, a trouble-making protein that triggers inflammation in many women, making endometriosis difficult to bear, explains Peter Green, M.D., professor of medicine at Colombia University .


Soothe foot pain with salt

Experts say at least six million Americans develop painful ingrown toenails each year. But regularly soaking ingrown nails in warm salt water baths can cure these painful infections within four days, say scientists at California ’s Stanford University . The salt in the mix naturally nixes inflammation, plus it’s anti-bacterial, so it quickly destroys the germs that cause swelling and pain. Just mix 1 teaspoon of salt into each cup of water, heat to the warmest temperature that you can comfortably stand, and then soak the affected foot area for 20 minutes twice daily, until your infection subsides.


Prevent digestive upsets with pineapple

Got gas? One cup of fresh pineapple daily can cut painful bloating within 72 hours, say researchers at California ’s Stanford University . That's because pineapple is natually packed with proteolytic enzymes, digestive aids that help speed the breakdown of pain-causing proteins in the stomach and small intestine, say USDA researchers.


Relax painful muscles with peppermint

Suffering from tight, sore muscles? Stubborn knots can hang around for months if they aren’t properly treated, says naturopath Mark Stengler, N.D., author of the book, The Natural Physician’s Healing Therapies. His advice: Three times each week, soak in a warm tub scented with 10 drops of peppermint oil. The warm water will relax your muscles, while the peppermint oil will naturally soothe your nerves -- a combo that can ease muscle cramping 25 percent more effectively than over-the-counter painkillers, and cut the frequency of future flare-ups in half, says Stengler.


Give your back some TLC with grapes

Got an achy back? Grapes could be the ticket to a speedy recovery. Recent studies at Ohio State University suggest eating a heaping cup of grapes daily can relax tight blood vessels, significantly improving blood flow to damaged back tissues (and often within three hours of enjoying the first bowl). That’s great news because your back’s vertebrae and shock-absorbing discs are completely dependent on nearby blood vessels to bring them healing nutrients and oxygen, so improving blood flow is essential for healing damaged back tissue, says Stengler.


Wash away pain injuries with water

Whether it’s your feet, your knees or your shoulders that are throbbing, experts at New York ’s Manhattan College , say you could kick-start your recovery in one week just by drinking eight 8-ounce glasses of water daily. Why? Experts say water dilutes, and then helps flush out, histamine, a pain-triggering compound produced by injured tissues. “Plus water is a key building block of the cartilage that cushions the ends of your bones, your joints’ lubricating fluid, and the soft discs in your spine,” adds Susan M. Kleiner, Ph.D., author of the book, The Good Mood Diet. “And when these tissues are well-hydrated, they can move and glide over each other without causing pain.” One caveat: Be sure to measure your drinking glasses to find out how large they really are before you start sipping, she says. Today’s juice glasses often hold more than 12 ounces, which means five servings could be enough to meet your daily goal.


Heal sinus problems with horseradish

Latest studies show sinusitis is the nation’s number one chronic health problem. And this condition doesn’t just spur congestion and facial pain, it also makes sufferers six times more likely to feel achy all-over. Horseradish to the rescue! According to German researchers, this eye-watering condiment naturally revs up blood flow to the sinus cavities, helping to open and drain clogged sinuses and heal sinus infections more quickly than decongestant sprays do. The study-recommended dose: One teaspoon twice daily (either on its own, or used as a sandwich or meat topping) until symptoms clear.


Beat bladder infections with blueberries

Eating 1 cup of blueberries daily, whether you opt for them fresh, frozen or in juice form, can cut your risk of a urinary tract infection (UTIs) by 60 percent, according to researchers at New Jersey’s Rutgers University. That's because blueberries are loaded with tannins, plant compounds that wrap around problem-causing bacteria in the bladder, so they can’t get a toehold and create an infection, explains Amy Howell, Ph.D. a scientist at Rutgers University .



Heal mouth sores with honey

Dab painful canker and cold sores with unpasteurized honey four times daily until these skin woes disappear, and they’ll heal 43 percent faster than if you use a prescription cream, say researchers at the Dubai Specialized Medical Center in the United Arab Emirates . Raw honey’s natural enzymes zap inflammation, destroy invading viruses and speed the healing of damaged tissues, say the study authors.


Fight breast pain with flax

In one recent study, adding 3 tablespoons of ground flax to their daily diet eased breast soreness for one in three women within 12 weeks. Scientists credit flax’s phytoestrogens, natural plant compounds that prevent the estrogen spikes that can trigger breast pain. More good news: You don’t have to be a master baker to sneak this healthy seed into your diet. Just sprinkle ground flax on oatmeal, yogurt, applesauce or add it to smoothies and veggie dips.


Cure migraines with coffee

Prone to migraines? Try muscling-up your painkiller with a coffee chaser. Whatever over-the-counter pain med you prefer, researchers at the National Headache Foundation say washing it down with a strong 12- ounce cup of coffee will boost the effectiveness of your medication by 40 percent or more. Experts say caffeine stimulates the stomach lining to absorb painkillers more quickly and more effectively.


Tame leg cramps with tomato juice

At least one in five people regularly struggle with leg cramps. The culprit? Potassium deficiencies, which occur when this mineral is flushed out by diuretics, caffeinated beverages or heavy perspiration during exercise. But sip 10 ounces of potassium-rich tomato juice daily and you'll not only speed your recovery, you'll reduce your risk of painful cramp flare-ups in as little as 10 days, say UCLA researchers.


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