"MY MOTTO"

"MY MOTTO"
LIFE...AND THE THINGS IT BRINGS

Sunday, November 9, 2014

HEAD ACHES THAT SPIKE, COME AND GO. IS IT TMJ? TEMPORAL ARTERITIS? THAT ABNORMAL VEIN THAT WAS FOUND IN MY MRI? I BELIEVE THAT IT ALL IS CAUSED BY THE LYME DISEASE AND MUST FIND A WAY TO GET IT OUT!!!!

BEEN EXPERIENCING THESE WEIRD TYPE OF HEAD ACHES..OR HEAD PAINS, AS I CALL IT. IT IS NOT LIKE A REGULAR HEADACHE. IT WILL SPIKE LIKE IT IS CONNECTED TO MY HEART OR SOMETHING. I HAVE ALSO BEEN HAVING PAIN IN MY VEINS AND WAS DIAGNOSED HAVING AN ABNORMAL VEIN IN MY HEAD. ALTHOUGH, THEY DIDN'T TELL ME WHERE THE VEIN IS. :o
I DO HAVE TMJ AND WAS DIAGNOSED WITH IT YEARS AGO, BUT MY JAW IS STAYING SORE HEAR LATELY. ON THE RIGHT SIDE, LOWER JAW BONE, IT STAYS SORE AND I CAN BARELY TOUCH IT. I DO NEED SOME TEETH WORK DONE, BUT HAD TO PUT IT ON THE BACK BURNER, DUE TO HAVING ALL OF MY OTHER HEALTH ISSUES. 
I HAVE LYME DISEASE, ADDISON'S DISEASE AND FIBROMYALGIA. PLUS A TON OF NEURLOGICAL DEFICITS WITH THE NECK AND BACK ISSUES. ALSO DEALING WITH A C2 SCERLOTIC LESION, T3-T4 COMPRESSED FRACTURE, T8-T9 PROTRUSION, ALONG WITH DDD, SPONDYLOSIS AND SPINAL STENOSIS. 
I DO TAKE NEURONTIN THAT SEEMS TO HELP WITH SOME OF THE NERVE PAIN. DON'T TAKE MUCH PAIN MEDICATION, SINCE IT DOESN'T SEEM TO HELP ME MUCH WITH THE HEAD PAIN. I HAVE STARTED TAKING MORE ASPIRIN, WHICH DOES SEEM TO HELP ME A BIT WITH THE HEAD PAIN.  ALSO I'M AFRAID TO TAKE MUCH ASPIRIN, SINCE I DO HAVE THAT ABNORMAL VEIN THAT WAS FOUND IN MY HEAD. I ALSO HAVE AN AVM IN MY LEFT CEREBULLAR HEMISPHERE AND DEALING WITH A CHIARI MALFORMATION, FROM A CAR WRECK BACK IN '95. THE CM IS OVER THE DEFICITS, BEING 6.5mm AND I HURT IN MY NECK ALL THE TIME. I HAVE HAD AN ULTRASOUND OF MY NECK AND THE DOC TOLD ME THAT ALL THAT HE SEES ARE TIGHT, TENSED MUSCLES SHOWING UP. 
I'VE BEEN EXPERIENCING THIS JERK IN MY RIGHT FINGER AND SHOULDER. MY MUSCLES ARE TIGHT ALL THE TIME, ESPECIALLY IN MY NECK AND JAW AREA AND IT COULD BE THE REASON FOR THE HEADACHES OR HEAD PAIN, AS I CALL IT. I HAVE NO IDEA FOR SURE WHAT IS CAUSING THEM AND HOPEFULLY, WHEN I GET TO THE PAIN MANAGEMENT CLINIC, THEY WILL GET TO THE BOTTOM OF IT. 
JUST WANTED TO SEND THIS OUT AND SEE, IF THERE IS ANYONE ELSE EXPERIENCING THESE WEIRD HEADACHES, THAT SPIKE AND THEN JUST COME AND GO. 
A LITTLE MORE HISTORY ABOUT ME. WELL, I AM A SMOKER OF CIGARETTES AND HAVE BEEN WANTING TO QUIT FOR A LONG TIME AND HAVE TRIED, BUT DUE TO ALL THE STRESS THAT I EXPERIENCE...IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO DO. 
I BELIEVE THAT IF, I COULD GET THE LYME AND IT'S CO-INFECTIONS OUT OF MY BODY, IT WOULD BE EASIER TO DO. IT TAKES ALL OF ME AND WEARS ME OUT. I FEEL, AS IF MY BODY HAS BEEN BEATEN AND DON'T HAVE ANY ENERGY. I LITERALLY FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN UNPLUGGED.  
I EXPERIENCE CONSTANT MUSCLE SPASMS IN MY LEGS AND HAVE A BED, WITH A LEG MESSAGE FEATURE THAT CONTINUOUSLY RUNS. I THINK THAT I WOULD GO CRAZY, IF I DIDN'T HAVE THAT FEATURE ON MY BED. THEY FEEL LIKE THEY PULSATE OR THROB, WHERE I FEEL THAT THE BED FEATURE CONFUSES MY MIND AND I CAN DEAL WITH THEM MORE. 
I DON'T BELIEVE THAT ANYONE KNOWS HOW STRONG, I REALLY AM. I AM NOT A BIT FRAGILE, ALTHOUGH I MIGHT LOOK LIKE I AM. I HAVE A SMALL BODY FRAME AND LOOK LIKE I COULD BREAK, BUT REALLY I AM REALLY STRONG. MY HANDS CAN REALLY BE STRONGER THAN, OTHERS CAN IMAGINE THEY ARE. I EVEN DON'T KNOW MY OWN STRENGTH SOMETIMES. 
ME AND GARY ON THE WAY BACK FROM ONE OF MY DOCTOR VISITS. YOU CAN SEE THAT I LIKE TO FEEL THE WIND IN MY HAIR. LOL :) I TRY TO KEEP SMILING, NO MATTER WHAT, BUT IT SURE DOES GET DIFFICULT TO DO SOME TIMES AND DON'T FEEL LIKE LIVING AT TIMES, BUT KEEP PUSHING FORWARD..SOME HOW. IF, IT WEREN'T FOR GOD..I WOULDN'T HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR. I DON'T LIKE BEING SICK AND ONLY WANT TO BE HEALTHY AGAIN, BUT IT ALMOST SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE TO FEEL GREAT ALL THE TIME. I SURE DO TRY THOUGH AND KNOW, THAT IT IF WEREN'T FOR GOD...I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO SMILE AT ALL. 

I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH, THAT I JUST KEEP GOING SOME HOW AND JUST DEAL WITH WHATEVER COMES MY WAY.  I HAVE SO MANY THINGS WRONG WITH ME, THAT IT SEEMS UNBELIEVABLE, EVEN TO ME. I DON'T SEE HOW A PERSON COULD HAVE ALL THAT WRONG WITH THEM, BUT I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH THEM AND CAN'T ARGUE WITH THE DOCTORS. 
I DO A LOT OF RESEARCH ON WHAT I'VE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH AND HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH IN THE PROCESS. THE ONE THING, THAT I BELIEVE THAT HAS TRULY HELPED ME, IS THAT I STARTED USING ESSENTIAL OILS. I STARTED BACK BEFORE I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH THE ADDISON'S OR THE LYME DISEASE AND TRULY BELIEVE THAT IT IS WAS HAS KEPT ME GOING ALL THIS TIME. I DON'T BELIEVE THAT I WOULD STILL BE HERE, IF I HADN'T OF DISCOVERED THEM. I ADD ABOUT 15 DIFFERENT OILS TO MY BATH WATER, EACH TIME THAT I TAKE A BATH AND FEEL SO ALIVE, WHEN I GET OUT OF THE TUB. THE PAIN DOES COME BACK, BUT IT DOES GIVE ME A COUPLE OF HOURS OF RELIEF, BEFORE IT DOES. 
GOD PUT THE OILS HERE FOR US TO USE AND DO BELIEVE THAT HE CREATED THEM, FOR THAT PURPOSE. ALL THE OILS, EITHER CAME FROM A FLOWER OR TREE. AS A MATTER OF FACT, IF YOU NOTICE THAT MOST OF THE MEDICATIONS THAT WE HAVE TODAY, CAME FROM SOMETHING NATURAL THAT GOD MADE. I DO THANK GOD FOR THEM. 


WELL, TO SUM EVERYTHING UP. I AM SO TIRED OF BEING SICK AND ONLY WANT TO GET BACK TO WELLNESS AND IT SEEMS THAT MOST OF MY PROBLEMS HAVE COME FROM THAT SINGLE BITE OF A TICK. I HAVE RESEARCHED, WHERE IT HAS BEEN THE CAUSE OF THE ADDISON'S DISEASE. IT COULD BE POSSIBLE THAT THE LYME CAUSE ALL OF IT!!! THE SPIRCHETTES FROM LYME, CAN GO ANYWHERE THAT THEY WANT. THEY CAN EVEN DRILL INTO A PERSON'S BONES. :o
THE LYME IS WHAT HAS DRAGGED ME DOWN AND IF, ANY WAY POSSIBLE I'VE GOT TO GET TREATMENT FOR IT AND IT'S CO-INFECTIONS. IF, I EVER WANT TO GET TOTALLY WELL, IT IS WHAT NEEDS TO GO. THE ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT INSURANCE DOESN'T COVER TREATMENT FOR THE LYME. :P 
IT DOESN'T SEEM FAIR AND THERE MUST BE A WAY, TO GET IT TREATED. THE PLACES THAT DO TREATMENT COSTS A FORTUNE AND SOMETHING THAT I JUST DON'T HAVE. ONE PLACE THAT DOES TREATMENT COST $7000 A WEEK. WHO COULD AFFORD THAT? I KNOW THAT I CAN'T. WE LIVE FROM WEEK TO WEEK HERE AND ARE BARELY SURVIVING...SO, I DEFINITELY WON'T BE ABLE TO GO THERE. ANOTHER PLACE IS LOCATED IN RENO, NEVADA, CALLED SIERRA INTEGRATIVE MEDICINE. THEIR COST IS A LOT BETTER, BUT STILL HIGH AS A CAT'S BACK!! IT COSTS $3000 A WEEK AND WOULD NEED 4-6 WEEKS OF TREATMENT. I PRAY THAT I CAN RAISE IT, BUT WOULD HAVE TO SELL OUR HOME, IF I DO...UNLESS, THE MONEY COULD BE RAISED SOME WAY. 
I LIVE IN ARKANSAS AND IN A MOBILE HOME. YES, I AM NOT RICH AND TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO RAISE THE MONEY SOME HOW. 
I DID WORK IN NASHVILLE IN OPRYLAND AND THERE ARE A FEW FRIENDS OF MINE, WHO ARE WILLING TO HELP ME RAISE THE MONEY, BUT THE PROBLEM IS TRYING TO GET IT TOGETHER. THERE HAS GOT TO BE A WAY. THE WAY THAT I LOOK AT IT..IF, THERE IS A WILL...THERE IS A WAY. 
ONE FRIEND, KEN MELLONS, IS WILLING TO HELP BY GIVING ME A BENEFIT SHOW AND SAYS THAT THE ONLY THINGS IS, HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO GET ONE PUT TOGETHER. HE IS SO KIND, TO HELP ME AND CAN'T THANK HIM ENOUGH FOR HIS WILLINGNESS TO DO THIS. GOD BLESS HIM!!
I WILL FIND A WAY SOME HOW TO GET THIS GOING AND DO HAVE A BUNCH OF PEOPLE IN MIND, WHO LIVE CLOSE TO ME. THEY ARE FRIENDS THAT COULD HELP  AND KNOW THAT THEY WOULD BRING MORE TO IT. THEY ARE PEOPLE THAT I'VE SANG WITH  FOR YEARS, LIKE C.W. GATLIN AND TOMMIE GAIL KILLEBREW. THEY ARE WONDERFUL PEOPLE AND C.W HAS EVEN BEEN INDUCTED, TO THE ROCKIBILLY HALL OF FAME AND IS A WONDERFUL MUSICIAN. HIS SON, TOMMY GATLIN IS ALSO A GREAT DRUMMER THAT I NEED TO TALK TO. TOMMIE GAIL IS A WONDERFUL SINGER AND KNOW, THAT SHE WOULD BE A GOOD PART OF IT. SHE HAS A WONDERFUL VOICE AND KNOW, THAT SHE WOULD BE WILLING TO HELP. THERE ARE A LOT PEOPLE, WHO COULD HELP. MY DAD PLAYS THE BASE AND WOULD LOVE BEING A PART OF IT. 

BEING ILL DOESN'T HELP ME, FOR MY BRAIN HAS TROUBLE THINKING OR REMEMBERING THINGS. SO TO THINK FOR ME..IS HARD, BUT ON A ROLE TODAY...LOL :) I'M GLAD THAT I'M HAVING A PRETTY GOOD DAY. I DON'T HAVE MANY OF THEM, BUT ONLY WANT MORE OF THEM. I DON'T HAVE ANY MEMORY AND LYME IS BAD ABOUT TAKING IT FROM A PERSON. I AM TRYING TO FOCUS ON GETTING WELL, THAT IS THE ONLY WAY THAT I WILL EVER BE ME AGAIN AND HAVE TO FIGHT FOR WELLNESS.
ME, HERE ON A DECENT DAY. I STAY IN MY PJ'S AND MOSTLY AM CONFINED TO MY BED, DUE TO MY BACK ISSUES. I FEEL THAT MOST OF MY BACK ISSUES ARE CAUSED BY THE LYME AS WELL. IF IT GETS INTO YOUR SPINE, IT CAN CAUSE MANY PROBLEMS AND MUST FIGHT, TO GET IT OUT. 


AFTER TREATMENT, ALL OF MY BODY FUNCTIONS SHOULD COME BACK AND THINGS GO BACK TO NORMAL. PRAYING THAT I WILL BE ABLE...SOME HOW, TO DO THE THINGS THAT I NEED TO DO, TO GET BACK TO ME. 
GETTING THIS FUNDRAISER BENEFIT GOING, IS MY ONLY CHANCE AT GETTING ME BACK. I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO GET THAT GOING AND IF, ANYONE IS WILLING TO PARTICIPATE, I WOULD APPRECIATE IT SOO MUCH!! :D
BECKY FREEMAN JACKSON, ANOTHER FRIEND FROM NASHVILLE, IS DONATING MONEY FROM SALES OF HER RODAN & FIELDS, TO MY CAUSE AND CAN'T THANK HER ENOUGH..FOR HELPING ME. ANY INCOME WILL HELP ME GET MY HEALTH BACK. LOVE YA BECKS. :)  
LORD, I PRAY THAT I CAN FIND A WAY TO GET RID OF THIS LYME. IF I CAN JUST DO THAT, I BELIEVE THAT I COULD HANDLE THE REST THAT IS WRONG WITH ME OR THAT MOST OF MY PROBLEMS WOULD DISSIPATE BECAUSE MOST OF MY PROBLEM IS THE LYME DISEASE. 
LORD, I JUST PRAY THAT YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH, TO GET WHAT I NEED TO DO...DONE. 
THANK YOU FOR THE MANY BLESSINGS OF YOUR LOVE. 










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