Friday, October 3, 2014
ABOUT TO GO OUT OF MY MIND FROM PAIN. WHAT DO I DO?
Posted by skeet65 at 10:58 AM
I MIGHT BE SMILING HERE, BUT HAVE BEEN SO GOOD ABOUT NOT SHOWING MY PAIN. I CAN TOLERATE A LOT OF PAIN, BUT NOW...IT IS GETTING UNBEARABLE AND NEED TO GET TO THE ROOT OF THE PROBLEM AND GET IT FIXED. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO...THERE IS SO MUCH THAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
Such a difficult time for me!!! Dealing with JUST so much pain!! I have Lyme disease, systemic Candida, Addison's disease...and all of my back is affected and have a petrusion on my L4-L5. Sure feel like death. Just being honest and speaking the truth. I don't know, what is happening to me, but I'm so tired of dealing with all of it. IT is wearing me down and pray for The Lord, to get me well.
The systemic candida is the most likely cause of the Addison's that I'm dealing with. We are also dealing with a mold problem in our home and can't afford to get that fixed. Just don't have the income. That, in itself will keep me sick and I will never get well.
Soooo lost, in a sea of PAIN..that can really bring a person to their knees and has me. I've always been such a positive person, but don't know what to do...anymore. Just so tired that I am plum give out. :/
On top of all of that, I'm dealing with all 5 layers of my back affected. THIS is EVER so hard to deal with and IT keeps me stuck in one spot in bed, where I can't move or the pain will increase. I know that I need surgery or some kind of treatment, that can reverse what is going on inside me. Been fighting this for years now...and it has taken it's toll on me. It is time, to get well.
All that I want...is to be well, so that I can sing again, draw again, be a human being again.
I'm waiting on a call from the pain management facility...that my NL is trying to get me in to see and pray that they can get me in soon. I need to be diagnosed and treated, but it seems like it's taking forever for me to get in. It is so hard, for someone that feels like I do, to wait so long. :o
Taking such strong medication that's been prescribed, by my NL...that I really hate, but don't have a choice in the matter. The pain is that bad, but it's not covering all of the pain either, only covering 50 % of the pain.
I truly believe that I'm dealing with some kind of infection or something...on my spine or CNS. It has to be bad...for, I feel like I'm dying I'm in so much pain. I know that I have to work on getting well, but don't see how I can even focus on it...from all that I'm dealing with...IT seems like tooo much on me!!! :(
Asking for prayers...that The Lord will help me get back on my feet and have some kind of normal life again.
Thank you ever so much and God Bless you, Karen